“Beautiful”

In less than 48 hours, we will celebrate the 16th birthday of the most beautiful thing we’ve ever been a part of:  our daughter.  I can’t believe that we are so close to the day when she’ll go out on her own as an independent woman.  It won’t happen for a few years yet.  But when I think of how fast these 16 years have flown past, I can’t help but prepare myself for the day she leaves as if it were tomorrow morning.  I’m not a “natural mom,” in that I didn’t play with baby dolls and I don’t rush to grab the newborn when someone shows off a new baby.  Truth to tell, babies and even young children scare me the tiniest bit.

But I have loved every bit of being “mom” to this little girl – I can’t imagine what my life would be like without her.  I love her so very much.

“Inspired”

We’re already wrapping up the first month of the year.  How does it go by SO fast?  I’ve been thinking about what I’ve accomplished over the last 30 days, and it’s hard not to get discouraged.  Of course, there were some beyond-my-control things that happened, so I can’t take all the blame.  BUT I am responsible for what I can control.

I’m working on ideas to better manage time and get the things done that need to be done.  I know it sounds silly, and totally unrelated to my writing and my photography, but one of the things that drives me crazy here at the house is the perpetual herd of dog hair tumbleweeds that roll across our hardwood floors.  Doesn’t matter how much we vacuum, the herd is always there.  So I’ve come up with a schedule to help minimize the problem:  there are three of us and there are three dogs.  Rather than each of us brush a dog every single day of the week, we are each responsible for brushing all three dogs two days a week.  I’m on dog grooming duty Tuesdays and Fridays.  So at some point today, I’ll need to brush the 95 lb. golden retriever, the 15 lb. chorkie, and the 8 lb. chihuahua.  And I will feel accomplished when I can check it off my list.

If I can get a handle on silly things like that (and laundry!), I think I’ll be able to work on my novel with a clearer conscience and not feel guilty if I lock myself away for a couple of hours each day.  Some other things that must take a backseat to this goal of mine:  Facebook and the internet in general … I spend much too much time on Facebook checking to see what’s going on with my circle of friends.  I am somewhat proud that their numbers are less than 200, and quite a few of those are students from my photography class, but still.  It takes time.  It takes work to stay in touch with so many people on a daily basis.  The internet as a whole is distracting to me, too.  It’s like a huge library in which I can wander up and down the stacks, browsing for information, ideas, etc.  That’s not necessarily a bad thing (I rarely go to our local library looking for a specific book), but when I look up at the clock and I’ve lost three hours just browsing … well, there’s a problem.

When I set this blog up yesterday, I discovered another blog that I hope to include in my pared-down list of daily internet stops.  Susan Kiernan-Lewis is a writer who also blogs.  Granted, I’ve read a total of THREE of her blog posts and none of her books (yet), but the three blog posts I read were probably some of the most inspiring posts I’d read in recent times.  She discussed “The Scariest Thing You Will Do As a Writer“, “The Great Social Media Flim-Flam“, and “Life After Twitter“.  And I came away inspired.  Because ultimately, to paraphrase the Bard, the book’s the thing.  Enough of this being distracted by things that impede progress toward the goal.

I turned 48 years old on Friday.  Thirty-four years ago, I had a language arts/writing teacher who saw something in my writing and encouraged me to write.  For the remainder of my school career, until I graduated college in 1986, I wrote.  And then I got a job, a car, an apartment, and eventually a family.  All of which are good things, indeed.  But I forgot about the hope that teacher had for me and my gift.  Recently, probably in the last six months, that teacher happened to go to the chiropractor’s office where my sister works.  She asked about me and if I was still writing.  When my sister told her “no,” she sighed and said, “I always thought she was publishable.”

And so I’ve been inspired, by that teacher, by Susan Kiernan-Lewis, by my husband who believes in me.  It’s not too late.  I can do this.  And I will.

“Waiting”

While my husband and his sisters discussed business regarding the estate left behind by his father and stepmother, I took my camera for a short photo shoot around town in order to give them some privacy.  This little guy was waiting on the edge of the seawall, as if we had an appointment for his portrait session.  I normally don’t do a lot of editing to my work, but I decided to have a little fun utilizing some of the “tools/toys” available in Picasa.  I kind of like the way this shot turned out.  What do you think?

Need to Vent ….

Okay, I know I don’t blog here much any more, but I need to vent and this seems like a good and safe place to do it.

 

So what would you say if your supervisor put you on a “growth plan” because he’d given you a less than stellar evaluation?  You might think there’s a reason for it — then again you might not.  Someone I love is being harassed by the next person up the food chain and I happened to see the “growth plan” …

 

I would say that if someone is going to tell you how crappily (and yes, that is a word in my world) you do your job, they sure as heck ought not have SIX misspelled words on the FIRST page of the “growth plan” …. and this does not even take into account the poorly constructed sentences.

 

“Domins”  (should be “domains”)

“evaulations” (should be “evaluations”)

“obsevations” (should be “observations”)

“deficiences” (should be “deficiencies”)

“competion” (should be “completion”)

“acitivities” (should be “activities”)

“quanity” (should be “quantity”) (on page two)

 

I can understand the occasional typo … I make them myself.  But with the beauty of spell check, (and any secretary who’s worth half her pay) this is just inexcusable.  In addition, the supervisor signed this … shame on him for not reading over what he signed … if he is such a GREAT educator, in a position to tell my loved one how much he needs to improve, he should never have let something like this leave his desk without correction.

You Can Find Me Over Here ….

I have decided to switch over to Blogspot … I actually started a blog over there about five years ago, but never did much with it.  Now that I’m using Friend Connect to follow my friends’ blogs and Gmail, it seems to make sense to tie it all together.  If you’d like to come by and say hi, here’s the address:

TxMom2Jami….Photos & Mental Meanderings of a Gulf Coast Shutterbug

I do hope you’ll stop by … I plan on writing more, posting more photos, and becoming a more active blogger.  Sometimes I just think you need a fresh change, don’t you?

 

Laura  pleased

I Quit the Job at Hobby Lobby!

Seriously, the manager is GREAT, I liked all the people I was working with, but the fact is … my daughter needs me at home.  She’s at that crossroads, where she can go either way … and I realized this weekend how much I need to be at home.  So, while I enjoyed my two weeks working at Hobby Lobby, Friday will be my last day.

I didn’t even take advantage of the employee discount.  Ha!

I may have to go in a little early tomorrow and do a little shopping while I can still qualify for that. 

The Unanswered Question

On Saturday we buried my husband’s father.

The next day, on Sunday, we made our way to church as usual and while my husband seemed a bit quieter than he might be other times, he didn’t seem too “off” from the stresses of the previous days.  I had no idea that he planned to speak in church.  In fact, I’m not even sure he knew that he would be speaking in church.  But when our pastor gave the members opportunity to share testimonies, songs of praise, etc., my husband raised his hand and asked if he could say a few words.

He started out by saying how much he appreciated that our pastor and his wife had made the time to come to his father’s funeral the previous day.  He went on to say a few words about his father, concluding that he was a “good man,” and then he said this:

“My father was a good man, but based on the “fruits” of his life, I am not sure that he ever asked Christ to be his Lord and Savior.  And so I will live with the uncertainty of where he is for the rest of my life.  I encourage you, I beg you to really think about your relationship with Christ … don’t wait to make the commitment, and don’t leave the ones you love, that love you, wondering if you ever did.”

My heart broke for him, and at the same time, I was so proud that he took this horrible uncertainty that he is living with and used it as an opportunity to entreat people to not make the same mistake, both for their own sakes and the sakes of their loved ones.